Saturday, November 11, 2006

Confession

I found DMs phone number on an old email the other night and texted him. He didn't reply. Why the fuck would he?!

10 comments:

always kris said...

(((((((OG)))))))))

I know how you're feelin

Anonymous said...

fit bird still blanking me, its all because of my boot fetish, oh dear,
never mind, its erotica next week, mmmmm,

Vi said...

DELETE! DELETE! DELETE! Gotta get him out of your life!!!!

always kris said...

how do you delet it if you have one memorized in your brain?????????????????

Wild Cat said...

Shame there is no 'delete' button for emotions and feelings.
Picture one, like there is on the keyboard... but would we have the courage to actually press it I wonder?

Ordinary Girl said...

Cheers all. Don't worry, OG is back on track. The low moments are definitely not as low as they used to be. I was going to say not as frequent either, but to be honest looking back on my blog there aren't many days where he's not mentioned!!

Anyway, I'm getting there. I think I have one post left about him, but need to call it a day once and for all soon I think!

always kris said...
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Mummy said...

i think the question to ask yourself is, why would you text him ?

Tobiwan said...

Getting him out of your life seems to be the only option for you to have any peace. I found it really difficult to give up the ghost when I didn't feel like I had complete closure. Without closure, they're still apart of you as much as they were when they left. I'm assuming this is all the same for women as it is for men.

Hang in there OG, time is the best healer of all.

Ordinary Girl said...

Good question Joie. A lot of reasons really... because sometimes the need to connect with him is so overwhelming that I just need to blurb it all out. Like blood letting I guess?! Just sending it makes me feel better, whether I get a reply or not. And because I don't want to let it go completely. I want him in my life, though I can't cope with it either. And I guess the more often he doesn't reply then the easier it is for me to forget and to deal with. To make myself believe that he has the life he wants with someone who isn't me, and that I need to accept that. I don't know!!

And I understand why he wouldn't reply, in his situation I would have stopped engaging with me months ago, so I can accept it when he doesnt. Much as it hurts. But I don't understand why he would reply, and invariably, he does...

Cheers Tobi. He lives 5000 miles away, how out of my life can he be??? And I have tried a couple of times, and thought I'd achieved!, closure. But it just never seems to end! Time will do it eventually I guess!