Weird Science

Had a funny little interaction today that got me wondering.

I may have mentioned, or may not, that I sit as a Hospital Manager for the local mental health trust in my county. Basically this means that I sit as a lay person, on a panel with two other lay people, and make a decision about whether people should remain under a mental health section or not. It's voluntary work, but work that I love, mainly because I believe to wrongly deny somebody their liberty is one of the most awful things society can do to a person. Particularly a mentally unwell and vulnerable person.

Anyhoo! I had a hearing this morning, with two of the other HM's, one of whom shall be called HCO. HCO and I have sat on a couple of hearings together, and always manage to get into healthy and extended debate about the outcome! This was particularly realised a couple of weeks ago when we had a really, really difficult to decide case, and verified today at another very close call case.

Now the thing about HCO is, that he is not remotely attractive to me. Really. Not remotely. I am sure he is pretty average looking for a late 30's male, and lots of women may think that. I am not one of them. He seems a nice bloke, relatively amusing at times, clean and presentable, but very straight (as in "proper"), if you know what I mean, and really not my cup of tea - shallow girl that I am!

The strange thing is, that today, after the heated (but always pleasant) debate and the decision finalising, I found myself, ever such a little, flirting with him! What??! Seriously, I realised and went "Woah! What is that all about?"

So what is that all about? I'm sure I'm not attracted to him physically, but for some reason all afternoon (and if I'm honest even now as I'm typing this out), I've had a little smile on my face at our exchanges this morning. Weird. Pleasant!! But definitely weird!