Quicksand

I "worked from home" today. Just couldn't face going in, which I know is anti-productive because it will all still be there, and more, tomorrow - but I'm just so knackered.

Life all feels like a struggle at the moment. Probably just the weather, and I'm sure it will pass, but it all feels like hard work and little joy. That's it - I don't really take joy in anything very much these days. I can't remember the last time I had a really, really good laugh.

Perhaps its just getting older, perhaps its work, perhaps its just how life is sometimes - I don't know. I just can't be bothered.

And I miss him, even though he's never mentioned much these days. Even though its better than its ever been. Even though I went through the whole festive period pretty unscathed and without getting in touch with him. I miss him.

Hibernation

It's about all I'm good for at the moment! Not low, but just feel generally wiped out and can't be arsed. Don't know if its old age or crappy weather, but whatever it is I seem to have lost all energy at the moment, so just taking it easy.

I'm reading blogs and comments but just not able to reply anything remotely constructive, let alone post anything even remotely interesting. Am there in spirit though and am sure I will buck up again soon.

Roll on the weekend

Well the rest of the week since I last posted has just flown by! With nothing of any excitement to report I am afraid!

I worked right through until 8.30pm on Wednesday night, and then a full day yesterday followed by outreach from 8-11pm, so am pretty worn out right about now and looking forward to the weekend off. In fact I'm seriously considering booking a couple of days off while the kids are at school just so I can lounge around and do absolutely nothing!!

In between working my time has been spent lurking on all your blogs (I have been reading, just not commenting), and emailing Space. He is managing to keep up with some really bantering emails (of the old me in finest form), which is both a surprise and extremely enjoyable, (it's been a long time since I've felt inspired to communicate with someone that way), and even hinted at a meet. I look forward to the banter and his pics are pretty good, though variable as pics are, but I'm not sure I'm ready to take any further steps with things right now. Will just have to wait and see!

No better

I feel like I'm doing nothing but moaning at the moment, but I'm still feeling absolutely worn out.

I had a quick flick round Blogland last night (apologies for my lack of commenting by the way, I will catch up soon) and was in bed by 10.30pm, which is practically unheard of for me. I was meant to be doing outreach tonight, but a colleague offered to do it for me, which I'm so pleased about now as it's not even 9.30pm and I'm exhausted already.

I need to have recovered by the weekend as I've a hen night on Saturday, which I'm sure will be a long one! Better get off to bed!

Shattered

Too tired to post properly, so a quick summary:

- last night, Bea visited to update on first date with Perry
- this morning, trip to orthodontist for Y to have his braces removed
- late morning, slight (accidental) flirting with another non-fanciable man (though more so) Finn
- this afternoon, hectic hectic time at work until 6pm followed by run to Sainsbury's
- this evening, dinner then awaiting X's return from friends for tea
- 7pm call to say X will be back at 8pm
- 8.30pm call to say X and friend watching film, 20mins to go
- 9pm X arrives home over-tired and full of coke
- 9.30pm X finally asleep after 20 minutes of raging tantrum exacerbated by Y

For some reason I know feel absolutely exhausted and fit for nothing but bed!