Reasons

I haven't checked on DM online for a long time really, but this has been a hard week so I couldn't resist the urge. He'd updated that very day to say...

"It's been so busy. I went to the UK and Paris for Christmas, then got back and moved my girlfriend in with me and now both in the process of moving (again) to Sunnyvale."

It still hurts like a punch in the stomach, but it also helps.

At it's simplest it gives me a reason not to contact him. It also gives us a reason not to be together.