If you're looking for jollity and japes then move the fuck along. Because there are none here!!
My mood hasn't changed. In fact it's got worse. I have written several posts today that are full of DM and how much I miss him, love him and want him, guess trying to pretend to myself and the world that I don't isn't really working!
I'm having the kind of day where if he'd have been living here still I would have driven the hour to his house just to look up at his windows and know he was safe and well, only to then drive the hour home again. Sad, but true, I know!! I don't know how many nights I spent doing that, sometimes several times a night, for I don't know how many months. Occasionally I still do. Though it's pretty pointless now he's not here anymore. I guess the journey helps me pretend, if only for a little while.
But he isn't here. And that fucking sucks!!
So, now you all know quite how fucking deranged I can be, I'm sure you'll be staying well clear of this blog in future. Probably a good job!
Saturday, October 14, 2006
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You know OG, this might surprise you, but that post has shown just how normal you really are. I think we have all engaged in similar behaviours when the path of true love runs deep and painful. Its happening for me now even though the woman in question has found the man of her dreams and is very happy. I just can't get her out of my head. And to show you I may be a little crazier than you - I never actually dated this person. We were very close and I nver said anything. Am regretting it now!
You hang in there, things will get better! x
Wow OG, you and I are SOOOOOO having the same kind of day! Your comment helped pick me up, so I hope that somehow, mine will do the same for you. And Andrew, I feel your pain too. Hugs to you both! (((OG))) (((Andrew))) Lets all get together for drinks! ;-)
I once cycled 5 miles to my ex's house (and back) singing ' you've lost that loving feeling' at the top of my voice at silly o clock in the morning! So can relate to what you say.
BUT 'things can only get better' and they do!
I'm not staying clear of your blog! Its well and truly a must see each day!
hang in there honey, it may take sometime, but hang in there, its so hard to accept when someone makes another choice, and we are left all alone, the thoughts of it, screaming through our head, the anger inside, wanting to hit out at someone or something, then as time passed, we think how did I get through that, what was I like, but your friends on here will help, I will still visit your blog, and instead of updating mine, I offer you my a big hug (), hang in there, you can see by your comments others care, Wayne x
thanks Kris! :)
Hope you feel a little better today OG x
((OG))
I'm with you here; I've had a busy (in a nice way) weekend and yet all the fucking time I was thinking about NN.
I miss him so much it hurts :o(
So if you find a magic key that turns off feelings so that we can live again, make me a copy.
It's hard being in love, love hurts.
OG,
Dont ya just hate that 'Cant get you outta my head' stage??
I've come to realise that wanting a guy is like wanting a pudding...
a) Not truely necessary & we can survive & function properly without one
b) Enjoy the initial rush it gives us & love every minute
c) We're sure as hell are gonna pay the consequences afterwards!
Signed
A (starved)pudding lover
x
Thank you all. It's nice to know people are willing to take time out to try and make my day a little better. And it's nice to know I'm not the only fruit loop out there!!
All joking aside, hugs to you all!
It's funny because I don't feel stressed, or lonely, or angry, just pointless really. I know it will pass. I feel a little better today.
I think it is just the crash down from believing it was over, to realising that actually it probably isnt. And I don't know what else I can do. What else I can say. Because trust me, I'd fucking do or say it in a heartbeat!!
Hi,
not really been blog following at all for the last week or so, sorry you are feeling down. It obviously won't put anyone off your blog, and certainly not me. All I can say is that I want to join the general thong giving you a big hug and trying to make you feel better
xxx
I am lovin this group hug stuff!
:-)
Hey OG, you callin us fruit loops too?!? ;-) lol
Hope your day is better. Mine is. It is amazing what a nights sleep and a few posts can do to boost your spirits a little.
x
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