Out of the blue

My lovely friend Disco came to visit last night, and we had a lovely time catching up and discussing men, as she has just split up with her boyfriend (again!). I was bemoaning my lack of activity in the men department and how I had had absolutely nothing to of interest to report since the very brief distraction of JB. Who, if you remember, never replied to my valentines email and has been quite quiet on the facebook front ever since, and rarely, rarely texts me!

Well, not 24hrs after discussion of him, randomly out of the blue he texts me! For prosperity, as follows:

Hi hun, just saying hello, hope ya all good xx

Hello my lovely, how are you? You seem to have been a bit quiet lately, all okay? x

Yes hun, all good. Been working a bit, ha, gonna move in with *mutual friend soon. Thinking about fucking off, wanna go to Norway!

Well that's good on both counts. Can completely understand where you're coming from, I love England but SO want to travel the world. Maybe some day for both of us! Let me know when you have a new address or are about for a catch up, I still have your pressie. x

I will do hun. I will take you up a mountain one day soon. Its quite scary so I may have to give you a cuddle, naked is a given, ha

Lol, I'd need some serious reward to get me up a bloody mountain :-)

Ha, it's a reward just to see the view hun, but if you come with me, good food and a night under the stars, its beautiful.

Will be in the *local pub tomorrow about 3 if you free hun. Be good to see you x

Am working tomorrow :-( Might get off bit early and have a free hour about half four. Will give you a text if can make it. Take care hun x

How very random! I'm not sure quite what to make of it to be honest, but will see what tomorrow brings and see how I feel then. I might just pop down the pub for an hour, see how the land lies! Quite amusing though! Perhaps my new heart factory is working after all!

Hearts are indeed made in factories

I treated myself today. The byline particularly attracted me...

I've grown weary of being told I don't have a heart. If you are lacking a heart or tired of your heart being broken it would be wise to invest in your own tiny heart factory.

Isn't it just the cutest? I suspect I may add a few more of these little Pearson Maron beauties to my collection over time. All I have to do now is wait for it to wing it's way across the Pond.

Treading water...

... is what I am in doing in general at the moment, and most likely what I will be doing for the next few years as well.

The energy required to raise two children singlehandedly, whilst working full time and intermittent studying and socialising for the last 14-15yrs has taken it's toll and I am currently in cruise mode. That is fine. I love my children. I love my job. I have achieved house and career movement in the last few years. In general, my life is just fine.

Fine can, of course, only last so long. I am an all or nothing kind of girl, and at the moment I opt for nothing, because if I chose everything I couldn't cope. I want a one true love again. I want to be consumed with a person again. I want the space in my life to give myself, fully.

I don't have that space right now. I don't have the energy right now. I don't have the circumstances right now. So, at the moment I am treading water, letting life just pass me by whilst my children grow, my bank account becomes less hazardous and I continue to heal emotionally from the trauma of DM. I am happy to tread water. For once, I am long term happy with calm.

For now at least.

Pretentions

With calm comes time and space for boredom. With boredom (and days off work!) comes time to spend aimlessly on the internet. With time on the internet comes random dips into random blogs.

The pretentiousness of people who blog both astounds me, and bores me further. Of the many, many, many I have viewed today, only a couple interested me enough to bother to read past the first few posts, and even less inclined me to comment. So, just a brief thought for today...

Hey bloggers (myself included)... get over yourselves!!

Chocolate galore

Having spent the long weekend off work, in Oxford, visiting Little Sis and hubby and eating way too much chocolate, cheese and biscuits and other festive. fabulous and fattening food, I so didn't want to get out of bed to go to work this morning. The saving grace is that I'm off again tomorrow, yippee!! A lay in awaits for me.

Good and Bad Friday

Yesterday, nagged by X, I filled in a competition slip for something or other that Magnum are promoting whilst in Tesco. This resulted in being allowed to pick an instant win ticket for a Ipod shuffle stylee Mp3 player - and lo and behold, we won!

Today, my baby fishy, which I have lovingly watched for the past nine days, appears to be no more.

I guess that's karma!

Satisfaction guaranteed

Today I have bought the kids easter eggs (and paid for X to buy me one of course!) and a lovely roast chicken dinner with all the trimmings for tomorrow afternoon, as well as cleaned my kitchen, back hallway and downstairs toilet from top to toe, and sorted out my winter wardrobe into my summer wardrobe! A most satisfying day!