Friday, December 11, 2009
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Damn and bugger!
Haven't been to archery for the last two Mondays because Y was too tired this Monday and I didn't feel well the Monday before, so, I was planning a last little cheeky flirt with Robin this Monday, before Christmas, and to suss out any Christmas plans that would indicate wives, girlfriends, etc.
I've just had an email from the club leader to say there is no archery for the next 2 Mondays, and they start back 4th January! Bugger bugger bugger! That's that plan foiled then!
I've just had an email from the club leader to say there is no archery for the next 2 Mondays, and they start back 4th January! Bugger bugger bugger! That's that plan foiled then!
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
Drunken bum
I apologise for any rambling posts over the weekend - I managed to get myself pissed, by myself, on 3 glasses of 15% dessert wine on Friday night and didn't get to bed until 2am, followed by my birthday pyjama party on Saturday, where accompanied by Lily, Disco, Suze and Jamie I proceeded to drink much more wine before falling into bed approximately 4am. In fact, as I'm typing this I can see the huge bags under my eyes reflected in the monitor!
So, to catch up briefly, had a night out to a Northern Soul and Funk night the Friday before last, where much stupid dancing was done, alongside laughing with the girls, and catching up with some old faces I haven't seen in a long time, which is always nice. So that, combined with this weekend of late nights, plus plans for a party Saturday night, followed by a night out next Friday, my social life is looking up but my pockets are looking emptier and my face is looking tireder. Never mind, I suppose I should make the most of the offers while they come.
Money has not been helped by the fact that Christmas is fast rolling round, which I absolutely love, and after 4 years, finally doesn't feel marred by the DM situation. I am having the family to me this year, for the first time, so there will be Little Sis and hubby staying Christmas Eve again, which was lovely last year, and then we will be joined by my Mum and Littlest Brother on Christmas Day - where hopefully my Mum will make sure we manage to eat an edible Christmas dinner!! For the first time ever, I think, I am really organised this year - nearly all my presents are bought, some of them wrapped, and I even have my food ordered online for delivery on 22nd December! I am feeling very smug about it all - though have to admit it's more need than planning, as I just don't have the disposable income to leave it all to the last minute like I usually do.
Not only is Christmas impacting, but maintenance from Y's dad has stopped completely, and for the foreseeable future as he has just been diagnosed with Schizophrenia at the grand old age of 40, and been sectioned under the Mental Health Act. I've had to tell Y, who is always backward at coming forward at the best of times, which has been awful, and we're just trying to make it a normality - because I'm assuming this is likely to be an ongoing issue that needs to become part of his life, and mine by default. I'm also trying to ignore the paranoia about how such things run in the family, and take faith in the fact that there is no other mental illness in his family and that they believe this has been brought on by long term alcohol dependency, which hopefully my Y will avoid! On top of that, my poor boy has A Level exams in January, in at least 3 of his 4 subjects, and he is struggling with that - so I guess the next month or two are not going to be easy going!
On the bright side, I am off for nearly a fortnight over Christmas, and I just can't wait!!
So, to catch up briefly, had a night out to a Northern Soul and Funk night the Friday before last, where much stupid dancing was done, alongside laughing with the girls, and catching up with some old faces I haven't seen in a long time, which is always nice. So that, combined with this weekend of late nights, plus plans for a party Saturday night, followed by a night out next Friday, my social life is looking up but my pockets are looking emptier and my face is looking tireder. Never mind, I suppose I should make the most of the offers while they come.
Money has not been helped by the fact that Christmas is fast rolling round, which I absolutely love, and after 4 years, finally doesn't feel marred by the DM situation. I am having the family to me this year, for the first time, so there will be Little Sis and hubby staying Christmas Eve again, which was lovely last year, and then we will be joined by my Mum and Littlest Brother on Christmas Day - where hopefully my Mum will make sure we manage to eat an edible Christmas dinner!! For the first time ever, I think, I am really organised this year - nearly all my presents are bought, some of them wrapped, and I even have my food ordered online for delivery on 22nd December! I am feeling very smug about it all - though have to admit it's more need than planning, as I just don't have the disposable income to leave it all to the last minute like I usually do.
Not only is Christmas impacting, but maintenance from Y's dad has stopped completely, and for the foreseeable future as he has just been diagnosed with Schizophrenia at the grand old age of 40, and been sectioned under the Mental Health Act. I've had to tell Y, who is always backward at coming forward at the best of times, which has been awful, and we're just trying to make it a normality - because I'm assuming this is likely to be an ongoing issue that needs to become part of his life, and mine by default. I'm also trying to ignore the paranoia about how such things run in the family, and take faith in the fact that there is no other mental illness in his family and that they believe this has been brought on by long term alcohol dependency, which hopefully my Y will avoid! On top of that, my poor boy has A Level exams in January, in at least 3 of his 4 subjects, and he is struggling with that - so I guess the next month or two are not going to be easy going!
On the bright side, I am off for nearly a fortnight over Christmas, and I just can't wait!!
Saturday, December 05, 2009
Different strokes
I sometimes wonder how I would be if I'd been born as an Indian. I wonder if I would appreciate the constraints the culture brings, and whether it makes things easier in some ways - I wonder if too much choice, and over expectations will always be my downfall. I think you would never be alone.
Thursday, December 03, 2009
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
Anniversaries and milestones
Today is also my 4 year break up anniversary with DM - and yes, although the pangs are still there some days, the time between them gradually gets greater and greater, and whilst if I'm completely honest he remains my birthday wish, I can honestly say that the anniversary is second to the birthday these days - even if not forgotten entirely! Maybe one day.
Plus, its been almost 5 months without any contact - which is getting on to be a record I think!
Plus, its been almost 5 months without any contact - which is getting on to be a record I think!
Another year older!
Have somehow managed to reach the grand old age of 38! Not quite sure how that happened...
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