Thursday, February 25, 2010

Pastures new?

I have a job interview on Tuesday. I am not sure if this is good or bad...? I'll dwell for a while.

Friday, February 19, 2010

TGI

I am soooo pleased it's Friday! It has been a very long week.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Shame is in the air

Happy Valentine's Day to you all, hope that it brings the love you wish for xx

In Valentines News, goddammit those Facebook applications!! You may remember JB, old friend I saw just before Christmas who put me in a spin with the the briefest of kisses. Well, I haven't seen him since, despite some veiled invitations to get together, so I've just kind of got on with it, though the crush (which is probably the best way to describe it) has remained, slightly abated.

Anyway, I don't know what is wrong with me today, but browsing Facebook there is a new application, called Valentine's Day Love Calculator - a stupid thing where you put in someones name and it gives you a % of how much you love them! Playground stuff really. So, anyway, in goes JB's name, and it comes up with a rating of 87% that I love him (how sweet), which is fine, except it automatically posts it to his wall, and I'm thinking shit, shit, shit, I don't want him to see I did that - so a very short few seconds later the post is removed, and my face is saved.

Half an hour later, I see that he has done mine (and loves me 84% incidentally) and it's there for all the world to see. Now, I'm assuming that he saw my notification before I deleted it and so is just messing, but he hasn't done any other friends names! So, in my spontaneous stupid way, I redid his, expecting to get a 2% or something, only for it to bring up 82% and this time I have left it up. I also commented "Mwah Mwah xx" on his, thinking that if he's only messing (which I'm sure he is) then at least I look like I'm all cool and know he is only messing, blah blah blah.

Only.... That then wasn't enough for me! Oh no, that little carpe diem devil that lives inside me and is usually constrained by life in general poked her head out and the next thing I know I've emailed him...
" Hey there JB :-)
Just thought that as it's Valentine's Day, and in the interest of Carpe Diem, I would seize the opportunity to tell you that I think you are fabulous!! I think I may have a little crush ;-)
Big hugs xxxxxxxxxx"

Shit!!! What was I thinking?!!? I'm cringing with embarrassment now! Seriously, grimacing with shame at the computer! Which is stupid really, because what does it matter if he thinks eugh and is too embarrassed to reply or speak to me in public again, lol. It will get forgotten over time, or be dismissed or go down in the annals of OG time as that embarrassing incident.

But, oh, fucking Valentines Day and Carpe Diem - not a good combination!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Enough

Midnight.

Title - check!

Introduction - check!

Aims and Objectives - check!

Literature Review - check!

Proposed Research Strategy - awaiting blather!

Proposed Research Method - check!

Research Participants - half check!

Ethical Issues - check!

Proposed Analysis of Data - not yet started - eeek!!

Information Sheet - check!

Questionnaire - check!

Consent Form - check!

Deadline missed by 7hrs and counting.

Thank god our postal service is so unreliable at times :-)

Monday, February 08, 2010

White stuff and weekends

Well, the British winter is doing us proud this year - more snow today! I love the snow, and don't care how much of a nuisance it is. It's winter, we're meant to have wintry weather! This positive attitude is helped by the fact that I am currently snug and warm in my living room, with the ipod playing in the background, under the pretence of studying (yes, the studying has yet to commence and the clock is ticking...!), just watching the snow float by.

I am at home for another reason, as I went for the ultrasound on my throat this morning, which was quite an odd experience as the only experience of ultrasounds I've previously had were pregnancy related - so most strange to have your throat, not your stomach scanned. Who knows what will come of it, I will just have to wait and see what the results say, but I'm not holding my breath that I'll get a diagnosis!

To catch up, I've had quite a busy and sociable weekend this weekend! It was friend Jamie's 40th birthday on Friday, so to celebrate a Mods and Rockers fancy dress pub crawl was afoot! I did make the effort to dress up, as a 1950's rocker in case you're wondering - I will have to see if there are any photo's lurking - but the getting completely trollied on a pub crawl is not my style, so it was sober shenanigans for me, and drunken ones for pretty much everyone else. Was quite a good night though, with a good number of people there, although I decided to call it a day at 12.30am rather than continue on to the after-party. I was feeling completely shattered Friday, so was lucky to make it out at all, and Y was babysitting X, so I don't like to be out til all hours of the morning. Not to mention having to get up for bowling at 9am on Saturday!

Saturday night was spent with Lily at home, in front of the TV (that didn't really get watched) with a takeaway curry and lots of chitter chatter. Always a pleasure to catch up with her, and managed to talk ourselves nearly asleep as usual! Another early rise on Sunday morning as I am doing some rearranging of sleeping arrangements, and my dad was coming to dismantle Y's current bunk/double futon and replace it with a double futon only. Next weekend X is moving from a single to a double bed so more room arranging will be taking place!

So, another weekend is over, and another week begins.

Monday, February 01, 2010

Give me one reason

YouTube - Tracy Chapman - Give me one reason

Eye candy

I am just watching moving Best Friends Girl, which will probably turn out to be mediocre, but have to share the discovery of the gorgeousness of the bad boy character Dane Cook , who is frankly delicious!

He looks much more rough and ready in the flesh (well, the flesh on tv!) than the photos I googled - which is better, and I refuse to acknowledge any likeness to a certain now American. Nope, nope, nope - he will not define my perfect man any longer.

Goddamn my preferences for certain types!!

Update - shmaltzy it may be, but not only does it have the hot man, it also has a soundtrack that includes this...

Hooky

I am shamelessly skiving today! It's not something I do very often but every now and then I just need some time completely to myself - house empty, phone off, kids away. Time to catch up, focus, regroup from the everyday hassle and struggle of kids, money, work, life.

I should have had a weekend to myself (well half, Y was here) this weekend, as X was due to go to her Dad's for both Friday and Saturday night, and I was looking forward to peace and quiet and cracking on with my research proposal, which is not going at the moment. However, the best laid plans and all that - come 6pm Friday when I went to collect her from afterschool club (late!) she felt poorly. Headache, shivery, fever, etc. So I rang her Dad and said she was unwell, took her home, dosed her with paracetamol, comfy blankets, cosy pyjamas and cuddles before putting her to bed and resigning myself to a one night alone only weekend.

Saturday morning dawned bright and breezy, as did she, so I text to see what time he would be picking her up, only for him to decide that as he can't afford time off work she better not come until she's fully better! Oh, the luxury of stepping out of parenting when it doesn't quite fit!! So, bang went the weekend of studying in peace.

I had pretty much decided before I went to bed last night that I would have today and tomorrow off work, as my assignment is due Wednesday, however, as I opened my extension paperwork today to realise I've been given until 10th for my assignment, I now have the peace, the quiet and no motivation to finish. Instead, I have spent the morning catching up on paperwork, putting the bills back in order that had lapsed over Christmas and updating a finance spreadsheet to help me bring down the debt! I'm currently paying nearly £500 a month in debt - just think what I could do with that money if it was all paid off!?

So, today I am relaxing! And I don't care! Let the study commence tomorrow.