After

Even after all this time it still hurts to think of you talking with her, laughing with her, planning with her. It's those things that hurt.

I try to remember negative things, to tell myself it's good that you are gone, that I'm better off without you now. But even though I dredge deep for those things, they are rare, and that's just it; it's only negative things, negative experiences, that come to mind. It's so hard to think of you, of your essence as in any way wrong.

You will never be perfect, but you will always be perfect for me.

Today

I miss you. No matter how much I try not to. No matter how much I know you are gone. I miss you.

Bastards, BB, BBQs, Bereavements, Big days, BACK!

Well, ironically, after ATM (Across The Miles to you Middy) posted to let you know that I was internetless (but Armani Sunglasses intact), my internet has been restored. Much thanks to you ATM - an excellent job done! And a quote too! Hurrah!!

Normal service will resume shortly!

On behalf of.....

Hi all, I (ATM) am not really worthy of writing on this blog but am very happy to on behalf of the great OG...

I'd like to confirm that due to a slight lack of funds OG has no internet access but does say that the very posh sunglasses and perfume purchased in the Vegas duty free were worth it.

So she's busy working, partying as normal (on 1/2 a lemonade down the pub), looking after pesky X & Y (hey stinkbags how are you) and probably checking some new blokes technique.....

And finally I will leave you all with a quote (so that OG is proud of me)..
"Its the friends you can call up at 4 a.m. that matter" - Marlene Dietrich

1 + 1 = 2

1 message left from him.

1 lack of response from me.

2 people with nothing left to say and nowhere left to go.

Stars for the week ahead

With each passing day this week, we come closer to a New Moon. The decreasing amount of moonlight allows us to see some stars and planets more brightly. Or, at least, it does if we are not watching them from a city where the endless glare of electric illumination almost entirely obscures the sky. No matter where you are, though, you will feel the energy of a special celestial situation. Mercury is stationary. Mars aligns harmoniously with Saturn. There's a chance to reflect, to become more sensitive, to see an additional side to a story that has become overly familiar - and to overcome old obstacles.

Stars for the week ahead

Jupiter, the ruler of your sign,remains retrograde. For a few months more, you'll have to live with asituation that isn't moving ahead as fast as you might wish. You may alsohave to deal with developments that have more to do with the past than thefuture. Consequences of old decisions. 'If only you had known then what younow know.' Don't waste time regretting wasted time! It's never too late andif you look at what could lie ahead, you will see every possible way toprofit from an experience and right a serious wrong in the process. The pastis a closed book. You can yet make the story of tomorrow, though, a tale oftrue triumph.